You (Far: Part 6)

(Finished May 5, 2022)

Close we are

But still too far

If I were to look up to the night sky and make a wish on every star

My wish for you to come in closer would be my only one

But do I walk open-chested for you to easily cut through?

Bare myself and give you my heart to do whatever you want to do?

And can you guarantee that if I were to let you in, you’d not run away?

It’s not that I fear you forever take a part of me, it’s just that I want you to stay

Take from me whatever you want;

What a blessing it’d be for you to want anything at all

I doubt you’d even give me a thought

And I doubt that I would ever stop feeling too small

Forever I have to hide away what I want to give

And I can’t take from you what you don’t have

Far you are as you are by my side

Blind you are to what I hold inside

Open is still my wound

Closed off, I fear to be, when you’re around

So long the night has been that my roses have closed up after they’ve bloomed

And I wonder, would I bring out my roses to your sun?

To get from you what I’d want to hear; to get blood from a stone

And with that, in your hand lays my bleeding heart that you now own

And can you guarantee that if I were to let you in that I’d not fade away?

I’d fear I lay in your palms for you to mold me into what would make you stay

So easy it could be, thinking how little I deserve

So easy it could be, thinking that no love I could preserve

Oh, but if you were to sink in me, I would not leave you to drown

And if I fall too deep, catch me before I hit the ground

And as I’m in your arms, good enough I try to believe is that I have

And as I look in your eyes, dearly I yearn for what you’re willing to give

Far you have been for way too long

For you, I’ve longed until I could no longer long

For the longest time, I’ve felt this unnerving, undeserving feeling deep down in my heart.
It’s time to let it go.
This turned out uglier than I thought it would be, but it had to come out.

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Just trying to grasp the universe and beyond.

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Just trying to grasp the universe and beyond.

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