It’s Like the Days Knew (Absence: Part 2)
(Finished July 11, 2021)
As the raindrops take my tears with them
And the clouds cover you, my shining sun
It’s like the sky knew
That it’d lose its shade of blue
Just to say goodbye to you
It had been quite heavy to start the day for a while
All that I had to wake up for was your smile
And as we’d both have to go on with our day
To the lullaby of the rain against my window, I’d lay
If only time didn’t have a say
In separating us more than we already were, half the world away
And as my days turned into your nights
We thought we were getting closer to taking flight
A dream to meet again
Oh, it had been so long
Oh, how sure we were that we were nearing the end
But oh, how we could sometimes be so wrong
As I closed my eyes, you closed your eyes too
But I never knew that I’d wake up and not find you
It’s like the nights knew
That they’d be veiled in black too
So they’d lay down these weary eyes of mine so they’d stop crying over you
Nobody’s been sending me flowers in the morning anymore
I sleep for hours and hours, only to wake up to a bore
And I can only hear the rain
As it falls, speaking your name
I have a window that sees no sky
Only a world that has lost track of time as it passes by
And although I may have flown
I don’t think I ever reached home
A dream to meet again
Keeps me asleep for so long
Only for me to wake up and have it all end
Only for you, I long
As I lay down on my bed, with the thought of you in my head
I cry, knowing that I no longer have you as I move ahead
And it’s like the days knew
That they’d be coming without you
Oh, there’s always been something missing from them without you
The first couple of verses in this piece were actually the first verses that I was able to gather together after he had left us. I wrote them not that long after, but I did not have the power to complete this piece. I actually wasn’t going to complete it at all, but something kept on calling me to finish it; and now it’s done. This feeling that I have, this grief that I hold, they have been eternalized in my words. I will never let go of them, only learn how to cope with them.
